Seeing and hearing about everything going on in Haiti has really made me do some soul searching. How about you? I agree with the statement "who are we to question God" and that isn't so much what has been on my mind but more so what do I believe about who and what God is. And am I believing lies. How do I explain my God to others?
I think it is making me more aware of how the world would like to force feed us that God is love. Really? Have you read the Bible lately? Specifically the story of Job. I don't find it a coincidence that I am reading through the Bible in a year following a chronological reading plan that had me in the book of Job 2 weeks ago. God allowed Satan to test Job and that included lots of people dying. What? Part of Job's testing brought death to others. That didn't hit home, I mean REALLY hit home, until this past week.
Something else that has me thinking is something that our Youth Pastor shared with us Sunday. He was talking about the fact that Haitians were singing praises to God in the streets AFTER the earthquake. Did you catch that? They were
singing praises after they had suffered such an incredible loss. Then he suggested the idea that God would use them to witness to others. Think about that. There are aid volunteers flying in from every corner of the earth. What percentage of them are believers? So could God be bringing the unsaved to Haiti to be witnessed to by the very people they thought they were going to help?
Speaking from my own personal experience I felt God's presence while in Haiti in a very indescribable way. I had a whole higher realization that God could meet my needs and the needs of my children with or without my help.
So do I believe God is love? Absolutely! I know God loves me. Do I believe the world view of love is really what true love is? Absolutely not! Sometimes love hurts.
To God and God alone be the glory!